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Recently, the National Postdoctoral Association (NPA) Conference has become a must attend for the Division of Loan Repayment. This conference is the largest national conference and networking event dedicated to the postdoctoral community – and most of all, it’s a ton of fun! This year, I presented a workshop on Imposter Syndrome.  To my delight, the session was an absolute success!  As evidenced by the standing room only crowd, session attendees really wanted to gain insight on how to deal with the imposter within.  So, what is Imposter Syndrome? It’s described as a pattern of thought where an individual doubts their own accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as completely unprepared and unqualified.

Basically in a nutshell, it’s that internal worst best friend that reminds you (loudly) of your mistakes, that you’re a bit of a fraud, your accomplishments are due to ANYTHING other than your talent or intellect and oh, by the way....everyone is going to find out soon and you’re going to be super embarrassed  I’d say the most difficult part of dealing with imposter syndrome is that NO ONE talks about it, so its allowed to loom over us....undermining our courage to speak up in meetings, go after new opportunities, explore potential areas of interest, or simply putting ourselves out there and showing up more fully in our lives.
If you have ever had any of these imposter thoughts, you’re in good company. It’s estimated that 70% of the population has battled the ‘imposter monster’.  Even some of the most successful people will encounter imposter syndrome at some point. 

“The struggle with self-doubt never goes away; even with writing my book, I asked myself— 'am I good enough?’— it can haunt us, because the messages that are sent from the time to time are that maybe you not enough...so don't reach too high. Don't talk too loud."First Lady, Michelle Obama

“I never raised my hand in my first year at Princeton because I was too embarrassed and too intimidated to ask questions. I went on to Yale Law School where I was at the top of my class—and despite all of my professional accomplishments, I still look over my shoulder and wonder if I measure up.” - Supreme Court Justice Sonya Sotomayor

But once you identify those imposter thoughts and feelings, managing them can get better with time.  First, however, you have to gain a different perspective.  So, what are some ways that an individual can combat the whirlwind of anxiety and negative self-talk that accompanies imposter syndrome?  I have a few pointers:

  1. Plant Your Feet....Breathe
    • When you are feeling overwhelmed, stop what you’re doing, unclench your teeth, take a breather and try to separate your true feelings/concerns from your fears (i.e., what are you really concerned about?).
  2. Silence is NOT Golden
    • You don’t have to go it alone and you don’t have to know all of the answers.  Remember that you CAN ask questions and it’s ok to ask for help/support.
  3. Be Your Own Best Friend
    • Play a new mental tape and visualize your success instead of failure.  Try thinking “ how can I make this happen?” versus, “I don’t’ think this will work out”.
  4. Brush Your Shoulders Off
    • Try to reframe your internal response to mistakes.  Instead of taking criticism or questions as a confirmation of your lack of ability, it’s important to detach the issue/criticism from feelings about who YOU are (after all, they are not even remotely the same thing).
  5. Cut Out the Instagram/Snapchat Mentality
    • It was once said that “comparison is the thief of joy”, so stop idolizing your mentors and others you look up to...and by all means, don’t compare your perceived ‘blooper reels’ to their ‘success reels’!
  6. Do Something Good for Yourself and Maybe Even Someone Else
    • What do you do for yourself?  Do you exercise, sleep or create art?  Self-care is not selfish.  After all, how can you be at your best if you’re constantly running on empty?  Also, think about mentoring someone else.  Not only will you empower someone else, you will empower yourself at the same time!

As you can probably guess, there was a TREMENDOUS amount of interaction among our session attendees at NPA and I’ve received several invitations to present at different universities.  While it may make me a little nervous to accept all of the invitations, I’m happy to ‘turn the lights on’ and expose the imposter monster for what it is...just thoughts that we have the ability to dial down. Perhaps I’ll see you soon at your local university!  In the meantime, if you’d like to read more about imposter syndrome, here are two articles that I think you will find useful: 10 Steps You Can Use to Overcome Imposter Syndrome, and  Intellectual Self Doubt and How to Get Out of It. Take good care of you!


NPA attendees gathering for the Imposter Syndrome Presentation
 

Yenisel Cruz-Almeida, M.S.P.H., Ph.D.

Dr. Yenisel Cruz-Almeida

I recently had the pleasure of attending and delivering the keynote address during the University of Florida Clinical and Translational Science Institute (CTSI) Research Day.  While my travel to Gainesville wasn’t the smoothest (I won’t bore you with the details), once I arrived, 

I was quickly enveloped by the juggernaut that is the U of FL CTSI!  Founded in 2008 to speed the translation of scientific discoveries into improved health (including the diagnosis, treatment, prevention and cure of human disease), the U of FL CTSI Program is a model hub for educating and training translational scientific workforce innovators for the future!  While I was kept busy during my visit with facility tours and luncheons, the highlight of my day (aside from providing the keynote address), was meeting and talking with a host of talented (and frankly, brilliant) fellows and trainees, many of whom are current and former LRP awardees.  One particular individual and her compelling story of perseverance and success stood out to me.  I’d like you to meet Dr. Yenisel Cruz-Almeida, Assistant Professor of Aging (and former LRP awardee).

Conversation with Dr. Almeida

Good afternoon, Dr. Almeida.  I’d like to start our conversation by asking what is your current position and research focus?

I am an Assistant Professor at the University of Florida Institute on Aging and my research focuses on understanding neurobiological factors contributing to changes in pain perception and modulation in aging adults.  Older adults are at greater risk for more frequent and prolonged pain and suffer from pain at multiple sites compared with younger individuals. It is the number one reason for disability in older persons.  With life expectancy increasing in the US and around the world, there is a dire need to better understand these factors so that we can better treat (or reduce/prevent) pain in older adults.

Where are you from originally?

I am originally from Cuba.  When I was younger, I vividly remember my parents making plans for us to leave Cuba. They wanted to give us a better life and more opportunities.  My parents scrimped and saved.  Eventually, my Dad designed a raft to help us, and several others, escape.  When I was 14, we set out to cross the 90-mile stretch between Cuba and the U.S.  It was treacherous! There was shark-infested water, the heat, we ran out of water and then the raft started taking on water.  We were about to lose hope when we were rescued less than 20 miles off the coast of Florida by a boat named “Opportunity”. 

When did you discover that you wanted to become a scientist?

I was always attracted to the discovery of Math and Science from a very young age, but really wanted to do something in the medical field that would impact an individual’s health. So, initially I leaned towards being a physician. It was not until after my undergraduate degree that I realized I wanted to be a biomedical scientist, to be constantly learning and asking my own questions. I also knew that I wanted to influence the lives of students, helping to mentor them and realize the opportunities that are unfolding in their own lives.

When were you awarded your first NIH LRP? Which NIH institute funded your LRP?

I was awarded my first NIH LRP in 2012.  It was funded by the National Institute on Aging (NIA).

What has been the major career-related impact(s)/benefit(s) of receiving an LRP?

The major career-related impact of receiving an LRP was being able to accept a post-doctoral level salary and pursue the postdoctoral training that I needed to advance my career without worrying about how I would pay student loan bills. 

Have you experienced any other positive impact(s) of receiving an LRP been on your family or other unexpected areas where receiving an LRP has been a major benefit?

Postdocs are by no means making tons of money and at the time that I received the LRP, I had two small children, a husband, and we unexpectedly faced some unforeseen financials stressors where my salary was the sole income for a while.  Needless to say, the LRP was a HUGE unexpected help.  It represented yet another ‘opportunity’ for me to support my research dreams and help my family pull through some rather rough financial times.   

Any advice you would give anyone that is applying for an NIH LRP?

First and most importantly APPLY. If you don’t apply, you have zero ‘opportunity’ of getting it. Second, re-apply if you don’t get it, it’s worth it!

From your point of view, can you describe the importance of the LRP Ambassador Program?

As an LRP ambassador, I raise awareness about the LRP program, meet often with potential applicants and share my experiences including my own previous application documents with applicants. The LRP Ambassador Program is a way for the LRPs to be personalized and demystified.

As a reminder, our LRP Ambassador Directory is available 24/7 and, searchable by state and LRP. If you’re planning to apply for an LRP award, finding an Ambassador is a great first step! Ambassadors provide advice, encouragement regarding the LRP application process, their experiences, and more – so take advantage of this handy resource today!

 

Happy New Year! I sincerely hope you had a restful, and enjoyable holiday season. As you know, the 2019 LRP application cycle officially closed on November 15th, and more than 2600 researchers from across the country submitted applications! If you were one of the 2600+ applicants, the Division of Loan Repayment (DLR) thanks you for your enthusiastic response! 2019 is shaping up to be an exciting one so be sure to stay tuned for additional updates.  As a reminder, our application cycle timeline is available so you can keep track of where we are in the post-application submission process.   If you have any questions, please feel free to reach out to the LRP Information Center via phone at 1-866-849-4047 or via email at lrp@nih.gov.  You can also follow the NIH Division of Loan Repayment on Twitter and Facebook for cycle updates.

Spring Updates and Announcements

Spring has arrived and the Division of Loan Repayment (DLR) has been hard at work!  For today's DLR Director's Blog, I'd like to take a moment and provide a few brief updates on where we are in the LRP application cycle as well as communications efforts here at DLR.
Back in November, we received over 3000 LRP applications!  Since then, we have been busy ensuring that all applications were forwarded to the NIH Center for Scientific Review so that they could all undergo review by the appropriate NIH Institutes and Centers. If you missed my last post about what happens at each point in the application cycle, you can catch up here.   Also, if you have questions about your application, please feel free to reach out to an LRP program officer.
Have you seen our LRP Ambassador webpage lately?  We've revised our LRP Success Story layout! The new layout has a more modern feel and highlights our esteemed Ambassadors' backgrounds, research interests and the impact that receiving and LRP award has made on their research career.  Our Ambassadors provide a great service to the LRPs by providing information to prospective LRP applicants at their local universities regarding their experiences with the LRPs and the benefits that it has provided to their life and careers. If you are a past or present LRP awardee and would like to be featured, please send an email to LRP.Communications@mail.nih.gov.
Lastly, in an effort to publicize the fantastic benefits of the LRPs, we travel quite a bit throughout the year.  Be sure to check below for our upcoming conferences as well as our website for a meeting near you. (https://www.lrp.nih.gov/conferences

Conference Date and City

NIH Regional Seminar
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May 2 – 4 2018
Washington, D.C.

American Psychological Association (APA)exit link icon

August 9 -12 2018
San Francisco, California

Society for Advancement of Chicanos/Hispanics and Native Americans in Science (SACNAS)exit link icon

October 11- 13 2018
San Antonio, Texas

Society for Neuroscience (SfN)exit link icon

November 3-7, 2018
San Diego, California

American Public Health Association (APHA)exit link icon
 

November 10 -14, 2018
San Diego, California

Annual Biomedical Research Conference for Minority Students (ABRCMS)exit link icon

November 14 -17 2018
Indianapolis, Indiana

 

If you any questions about the LRPs, feel free to call or e-mail the LRP Information Center at 866-849-4047 (Mon-Fri 9:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. EST) or lrp@nih.gov. You can also follow the NIH Division of Loan Repayment on Twitter and Facebook for more information and cycle updates. Cheers to an outstanding 2018!

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